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January 24, 2007

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hey,I have a really long story but I don't have time to type the whole story today..
Basically,B.D.D causes me not to function properly and I hate it...they say if u have bdd u think abt it for more than an hour,well,I think abt it the whole day every day...can someone please give me some advice how to block these thoughts?coz I cnt even have a decent relationship with a girl..!does the stress of bdd make u ugly?plz say no..I feel like im a crazy person and no1 understands,coz obviously they think im out of my mind!sorry if spelling's bad...oh and p.s..ppl with BDD and Emo's are not the same...our feelings and pain are real...plz help coz my life is going by

I suffer from BDD it is a very serious mental disorder Much like other disorders it gets progressively worse over time if untreated. For me it started with anorexia in 8th grade followed by a disgust of mirrors. In highschool I started wearing makeup as a guy(yes im gay)but thats not the point, most gay man do not were makeup. I would spend hours at the gym. When I came out of the closet things got much worse and wanting to be an actor I began to fix some of these percieved flaws. First there was plastic surgery on a scar on my leg, then rhinoplasty a 7,500 dollar nose job that I charged on my Nordstrom card. Then followed laser hair removal of hair on my chest. After having lived in LALA LANd for some time I decided to move back east where I began to fixate on my scar again. All these years I had been hiding it from everyone or as many people as I could. I came up with an idea to get a tattoo over it which i did. I hate the tattoo too and not only that I caused nerve damage which makes my whole situation worse. I now have pain In my leg that I never I had before. I share my story because BDD is serious and can cause a lifetime of misery if not treated. Anti-anxiety medications might work well for some people. I would recomend clonopin or perhaps Xanax. If depression is an issue than then an additional medication or antidepressant made be prescribed as well. Some things that help me is whatever you hangup with you body is that someone else allways has it worse. I do however realize that it is impossible for another human being to know exactly how you are feeling.

hey everyone! I am currently studying BDD. I know someone who had BDD so I know about it from that point of veiw as well. My advice for you is to seek out therapy. It will help you live a more happier life. If I have learned anything from stuying things in pyschology its the fact that seeking help is the first and best step to take to feel better, and not to be ashamed to see a therapist. My friend saw one and said that it helped her so much. She is much better now than she has ever been in a really long time. I saw a guidance counselor during a difficult time in my life so I know how talking to someone about your promblems helps situations.

Hello, my name is Sarah and I am currently working on a story about BDD, specifically people who have BDD and turn to cosmetic surgery in order to "fix" their perceived flaws. I have done a lot of background research on the illness and I am really looking for someone to talk to you who has personally struggled with BDD. Blair, for instance, I find your story to be very interesting. If you, or anyone else, would like to speak with me about their story, I would be interested and very appreciative. You can either post to this blog with your contact information, or feel free to contact me via email at smkesten@gmail.com

Thank you and I appreciate your help.


Hello, my name is Caroline and my publication is currently working on an indepth feature about BDD. We are particularly looking at how people with BDD turn to plastic surgery.
We know this is a very sensitive issue, so we are looking for a very honest first person testimony, written in your own words.
The feature is for a glossy woman's magazine in the UK.
If there is someone who would be prepared to share their experiences with us, please feel free to email carolinegoodhart@yahoo.com.
Many thanks, in advance.
Caroline

hi, my names lauren, 18 years of age and i believ i may hav bdd.
it started when i was around the age of nine or ten, i started to focus in on my nose as it was not what i preceved as ''normal''. i started to become paranoid about it and when my broher inocently mentioned it was larger then normal,,,, well thats where the real problms began, i went upstairs into the bathroom and stared into the mirror tears began to stream from my face as i began to scratch away at my skin, makin myself bleed in places, the cats would be my later excuse, i was'nt crying from the pain tho, i was crying in utter disgust! why me i would think. why cant i just look like everyone else why cant i be pretty!?
when i was 13 my obsesion became worse, now it wasnt only my nose but my eyes to! i began to get bullied at school and of course the bullies focal point was my nose! i had spoken about nose jobs with my dad b4 however he never knew exactly how severly it effected me!
as i got older the obsesion got worse and worse, its at the stage now where i cant walk past a mirror without wanting to cry! most nights i fall asleep crying, wishing i looked diffrent.
i cant seem to keep a relationship going either, as my boyfriends are actuly goodlookin! i cant ever understand what their doing with me and i inevitably push them away! im not unpopular, i can socializ with ppl rather well! the only thing is it feels like an alter ego. i remember being in school and not wanting to leave the biology room 1st as the projector was besid th door and the thought of my face being projected onto the board made me physicaly ill! i cant have people look at me from the side either,if they turn to talk to me i turn and face them straight away so their not looking at my nose! i use my hair to hide it too!
i told one of my closest friends once about how i felt,, lets just say never again, i was in tears as i told her and yeh she faked sympathy! however after her and her boyfreind broke up he told me how they would both mock me behind my back! he told me this as an attempt to get back at her! ruin our friendship, one he had been envius of! its safe to say its over now!
i used to draw out the shape of my nose on a page and then resculpt it and just imagen how much better i'd look, how i might be pretty then!
i no im rambling on a bit and the spellings are all over the place, its just, since i told my friend about how i felt, i havnt yet told anyone else my mother thinks that i just have low self asteem as i have never metiond the posability of bdd, i dont think she no's wat it is either! my mothers an amazng person but she just dusnt no how to handle how im feelin, ive burst into tears about my aperenc in front of her several times! but shes my mother so she just thinks im beautiful and cant see what i see! well thats enough self pity i think! if anyone feels the same as i do feel free to email me!
once again my appologise for the spelling!
i just want someone to talk to! let me no im not the only one!

Luaren, I want you to know that you are not the only one who is going through this, and my mother says and thinks the same things as yours. I garauntee that she has never thought about bdd as a culprit, and she is also way too close to the issue, so there is really no way for her to step back and see you from a third party perspective. I often feel helpless and alone when I get a bdd attack. I talk to my fiance' about it, and he is great and tries to understand, however, I know he doesn't completely understand.
Do not feel as though you are alone. I have been studying BDD since I figured out I had it about 5 years ago and have found that there are a lot of men and women that suffer from this and feel alone as well.

One thing that I learned is that no matter how much we feel that we are being judged for our imagined flaws, we are not. People are so concerned with themselves and how they are being perceived that they aren't even paying attention to us.

Just remember you are not alone.

I have just realised that I have BDD, and that my whole life was dominated by it. I was completely delusional about my ugliness (in that I thought I was a lot uglier than I actually am). I have started a blog to record how I am changing my life- here http://lifechangingrealisation.blogspot.com/

well I have BDD and SAD and I feel on a everyday bases that I will go nuts one day. I see a shrink once a week It helps but as soon when the next day hits I'm back to feeling like crap again.They said there going to put me on meds soon becuase just by going to see the shrink I get real bad anxiety.Does meds really work?

Hi. My name is Tiffani.. I really think my mother has severe BDD and I don't know what to do. She has been so lifeless and unsociable to the extreme since I have existed for 20 years. She hasnt dated in 10 years and hasnt had a friend since I've be born which was 20 years ago. She was diagnosed with severe depression and threatened suicide about 5 times cops had to come and take her to the hospital. She had gotten some kind of illness on her face that went away. But now even though its gone she keeps saying she has something new wrong with her face every week. She puts weird creams on it and picks at it 24 hours a day. She hasnt gone in public for months except once or twice.. shes worn sunglasses in buildings when it is night outside and sits in front of a mirror digging at her face for hours till its nasty looking. She has said worms were coming out of her face and we she went to the hospital... she thought they were coming out of her toes and was making her toes bleed picking at them... now she thinks she has jock itch on her face and is putting the cream on her face. I don't know what to do... It is so upsetting seeing my mom like this and she wont seek help. I don't think they have diagnosed her properly and I think she has more than one illness.. I just don't know what to do.

Hi. I need help! I really think my mother has severe BDD and I don't know what to do. She has been so lifeless and unsociable to the extreme since I have existed for 20 years. She hasnt dated in 10 years and hasnt had a friend since I've be born which was 20 years ago. She was diagnosed with severe depression and threatened suicide about 5 times cops had to come and take her to the hospital. She had gotten some kind of illness on her face that went away. But now even though its gone she keeps saying she has something new wrong with her face every week. She puts weird creams on it and picks at it 24 hours a day. She hasnt gone in public for months except once or twice.. shes worn sunglasses in buildings when it is night outside and sits in front of a mirror digging at her face for hours till its nasty looking. She has said worms were coming out of her face and we she went to the hospital... she thought they were coming out of her toes and was making her toes bleed picking at them... now she thinks she has jock itch on her face and is putting the cream on her face. I don't know what to do... It is so upsetting seeing my mom like this and she wont seek help. I don't think they have diagnosed her properly and I think she has more than one illness.. I just don't know what to do.



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